How To Love Yourself
perhaps the hardest lesson
hardest step and
hardest downfall
in the human life
loving not others, but
yourself.
It’s been quite a long road
with hate and despair
and plenty of negative emotions
that I don’t care to share, but
you understand, I’m sure.
a lot of trips to hospitals
and sitting in uncomfortable cushion
seats in waiting rooms
the doctor’s voice can’t compare
to the voice inside your head
listing all your injuries, your faults
It’s hard to give practical advice
on such a subject
like this, because
I haven’t quite figured it out, myself
I wonder sometimes if
anyone has
maybe the ancient philosophers.
a first step might be to get up every morning
look in the mirror and say
“you’re loveable”
“you’re worthy”
because you are
a second could be to stop condemning
your every mistake, your every move
to push aside the loneliness to where
loneliness belongs
to say no to the little thoughts and voices and
the notes you write to yourself
the lists of wrongs and never rights
that keep you up at night, I’m telling you
are unproductive as it gets
what other people say,
it’s always empty words
it’s always thoughtless gossip
it isn’t who you are, or who you should be
I wish it was as easy as just
blocking out the words
or just not caring
but sometimes I bury my head in my pillows
and cover my ears to stop
from hearing the words
that say I’m not good enough.
I have so much more to say on this
but time is running low
and I’ve got a date with a mirror and
a notebook
I’m telling you, whoever you are
that you are worth it.
how to love yourself?
get a fuzzy blanket and drink some hot chocolate
drown out the mean words from
the others and your hateful head
and be you.